FOP + Anni. Afterthoughts

Posted a similar titled post in the 5566 blog, but this one is more about my personal experiences and thoughts for the event.

You know though i have realized long that God dun like "comfortable" ppl, but i have always tried to convince (or i should say deceive) myself that it will not happen to me "this" time.

Once again, i was assigned to do WEST. It seems that my fate always lies in East or West, i done East for a year and now i have done West since Dec 04. And yes i have been keeping track... cos i noticed i started preparing my 1st notes during that time. And so i thought to myself, ok not too bad cos i oredi had notes and a basic strategy that has worked. So i just need to amend a bit. That's it.

Once again changes are the only things constant, when i first got the ICs allocation, i was flustered trying to find the best matches to handle the zone. When i finally managed to work it out after much difficulty, i was informed of another major change that will uproot most of my plans. Humans always have this problem with change isn't it? Initinally once again i was lamenting that everything had to change. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me to adapt to the changes and be positive towards it. So once again, i made new plans for this new ELITE team....

Then throughout the week, last minutes changes, frustrations come from people that i do not think should give me such problems. I was upset and asked God why did such things had to happen. Then it seemed i heard his voice vaguely to ask me to just bite the bullet, trust in Him and move on, He will show me the way....

Ok then, i went for the 1st service with worries and fear in my heart, with all the "what if" questions in my mind, thinking if He will come through for me, if my team can carry the sector well? As if God wanted to make it even more challenging, i was told to standby to open doors at 6pm... my ushers could barely got into position and my 2 traffic ICs have yet to arrive. Though beforehand i oredi thought of a worst case scenario and how to deal with it but i still could not help being worried of what will happen. Of course once again God showed me that He will carry me through if i just lean on His strength. Though there were some upsetting hiccups and lack of team work + communication among the ICs, overall we still managed to scrape through.

Slowly through the services, we continued to build up better teamwork and understanding, by the time we reached the last service, everyone was looking out and covering for one another. This was actually the greatest wish i had hoped for them too. As brilliant leaders individually, i hoped all of them can complement and work well with one another to push their potential to another level.

Also the attitude and the hunger of the HOG ushers really touched my heart. They really reminded me of how we were like when we were their age and when our ministry was just as small as theirs. Their fire and passion to serve the Lord is something we must never lose. It was not that they were more talented or had better attitude but simply a heart that just want to serve. They flowed so easily with our leaders and we had an enjoyable time working together that when it was time to part, we did not want to leave.

CHC ushers in the zones performed extremely well too for the last service, based on the fact we barely had 24 ushers for the whole zone and we managed to survive! i am so proud and honored to be part of this ushering team of ushers who had never failed to stand in the gap and rise up to the occasion. Many of my ushers touched my heart; and this time it was not the youth but the adults that warmed my heart.

Most of the time, people are told of how adults ushers would hesitate to commit to such services and seldom will support the whole event due to their busy lifestyle, but i had adults who bited the bullet together with me and went through all the services; one even stood with the leaders together to stand guard for the zone.

When i looked at them from the terrace, my heart was filled with gratitude and i nearly felt tears in my eyes even as i thank God for the great things He has helped me learnt throughout all these days..that in essence it simply means "Just do your best and trust in the Lord, it is not by our talents or abilities but by the power and might of the Holy Spirit. If you cannot see the way, cannot see the path, just simply trust His heart"

Thank you Lord, for once again teaching me a valuable lesson on your ways and i hope many of you have learnt important lessons too... let's continue to grow and move on with the Lord!